Life goes on
I wrote this while I listen to BTS's song - Life goes on, and cries because something hits my heart.
My daily routine is to survive at that time, but I try to still live.
The reason I wanna live is because of my future, although that doesn't necessarily happen.
I think my life is far from my expectation when I was a child, I always suppose that this life is more beautiful when I grow up to be an adult, I always envy my sisters cause they're can do what they wanna do, go out and play with their friends, buy everything that they want to buy, and etc.
And this is the year that I got a lot of problems, my 16th age was totally fine, But when I 17 years old my life is mess up, I cried almost every day, in the morning or maybe midnight, so sucks, but I can't do anything, what I can do just try to live at that day. I think almost all of you feel what I feel this year.
After I get used to all these circumstances, I try to find joy, and finally, I can enjoy this life, but sometimes I got bad feelings again, it's totally fine, that's all are my thoughts that I have, So I have to accept it.
I realized that no matter how sick you are, how hopeless you are, you are struggled every day, or even, death flashes through your mind. But remember, Life goes on, life doesn't revolve around you. There are many people who need you, you are not alone, if there is no one around you to support you, make a reason to live. Maybe you live to hear your favorite song, to see people who can inspire you, the kdrama that you haven't finished, or whatever.
This is life, life is a complicated situation that everyone has. Don't think that you are the only human having a bad life, it's the same. everyone has problems too, but with a different kind of problem.
Life goes onLike an echo in the forestLike an arrow in the blue skyOn my pillow, On my tableLife goes on like this again