The way I put effort too much makes me wonder, who's there for me?
Hubungan sesama manusia baik itu keluarga, temen atau pacar lo (kalo punya) pasti butuh effort. Sesimpel komunikasi pun itu perlu diusahakan, apalagi kehadiran and taking care. But sometimes, manusia punya pribadi yang berbeda, and that's makes us have a different perspective. Gimana kalo ternyata bentuk effortnya orang lain gak sama kayak apa yang kita harapkan? atau mungkin, gimana kalo ternyata orang lain gak peduli sama effort yang lu kasih? That sucks right?. Sometimes when I put effort too much to the people I started to expect more. Gue berkespektasi kalo apa yang gue kasih ke orang pasti bakal balik lagi ke gue dengan besar yang sama. But actually, that's a big no!! People don't even know that I'm putting effort into them.
The way I put too much effort into helping others makes me wonder, what about me?. Gue selalu berkespektasi kalo gue nolong orang, mereka pasti nolong gue juga. U know what? actually, no one is there for me. Kayak mereka kemana? pas mereka butuh, gue selalu ada, tapi pas gue butuh orang lain, I don't even know, who I can ask for?. So I started to blame everyone, but actually, I also wondered, am I putting effort into people bcz I wanted to or maybe I am just afraid of losing people?. Yeahh, that's a big question that I always ask myself. Kadang kita melalukan sesuatu biar orang lain masih pengen bareng kita gak sih?. So yeah, after a long time, I realized. Untuk berhenti mempertanyakan effort orang lain, gue harus berhenti untuk putting effort to much into people, dengan cara mengubah perspective gue kalo orang lain boleh pergi if they want.
I started to put effort without any expectation of others, and I started to not do it bcz I wanted everyone to stay. Dan gue gak mau kasih effort terlalu banyak ke orang lain, karena gue bakal kasih apa yang orang lain kasih ke gue. That sounds selfish, but I did it for my well-being, cuz if I don't do that, who can do it for me?